shades of grey

float.............drift..................upstream......................downstream........there are no feelings............ears open.................eyes open..........the mind vacant...................peace.............the space around you stretches into infinity.................stars and planets................beauty never was so beautiful.................senses are euphoric and time stood still...............but then we are invaded..........the mind,the senses and i.................we are all invaded................"It" envelops us...........a cacophony and euphony of noises and sounds.............a huge montage of images.............al kinds of joys and fears...............hate.................love.........here i am................never the same again.............where am i?...................what am i doing here?..................why must i feel like this?..................why is it all like this?.....................what does it mean?............what is my purpose?.................i was free.................i was alone.....................i was innocent and at peace.........now i am burdened..........filled with the extremes of hapiness and sorrow........i cant see the colours anymore...........i cant see black and white..............i can only see shades of grey.........nothing is right and nothing is wrong because the rules are not the same for everyone..................so am i happy or sad?...............is what im thinking good or bad?..................i dont know...............you dont know.....................we ll never know...................we are not meant to know....................we were meant to live...........i was hit by life..............it changed everything......................only the shades of grey remain

siddhant