random...the life the universe and everything

randomity strikes....
im supposed to be finishing my marketing projecting but im an idiot wasting time and money in a cyber cafe......its ok its always worth it....
difficulty is a usual side-effect to life....you take a lot of life....you get a lot of difficulty....it says that in the bottle.....so live....in pain in suffering......at times of despair which seem to always be there when you just pull yourself out of something.....
thats ok....the rewards are greater.....life has another side-effect.....happiness.....the roller-coaster ride rarely ends....but when your down and you suddenly go up,even momentarily. theres nothing like it.....there never will be.....no drug no alcohol can ever produce the same joy.....life is all bleh and blah, with a lot of wooo-hooo in the middle....
in the end the search leads to greater things and greener pastures.....relationships and experiences....mistakes and questions...sheer ambiguity makes up for familiarity....i just felt like saying that cause it sounded cool :D ..... but really when you fight with someone and make-up for it, at no time does your relationship feel stronger, let it be anyone, friend family member or anyone else....when your back on track after the low you ve just hit nothing fills you more than a surge of pride for enduring your difficulty....never do feel you feel more alive,stronger or greater....
many times ive tried to see how life feels... make it tangible....make it real enoguh to touch...experience it just right.....its not my never-ending focus its not an impossible dream....its just another person doing more than just breathing......i m so pleased that im so young still and that there are many more ups and downs left....so much to create and so much to destroy.....
in short, there is so much to be human for, so little time......i know at the end of the day, i may not have climbed the highest mountain or had the skill to write a masterpiece(hopefully i will)...but i know i would have been disappointed and overjoyed with every turn in the path of my meagre little hill, i would know every little stone i passed along the way....i know that i would love the little short story that i wrote even if the whole world hated it....because every word would posses something of value that can never be ascertained by anyone else.....so many questions are to be asked and i will keep asking more...difficulty is merely a part of me, as is happiness and life as a whole should embody me.....its all well and good to claim you live life to the fullest....
but that means vey little...as life had no limit and fills you......how much can you possibly live life....life lives you.....

siddhant(i was bored now back to marketing)