Whats meant to be......

I am disappointed.No actually shattered would be a more appropriate word.I turn around to move away when i hear sumone calling,'Ashlesha!'I turn back.Its Anupam, my childhood friend and my neighbor.'Hey!How are you?'He says with a broad smile on his face and i somehow feel hes happy to see me.'I am fine.And you?'He smiles again, 'Fine but where were you these days?'I reply, 'I had been to Bombay for some days.' 'Bombay?'he says with a quizzical look on his face.'Yeah.For a job.' 'But what about Mihir?' he looks perplexed.'Mihir and I are not seeing each other anymore.I am shifting to Bombay in two weeks.Chalo i am going.Catch you later.'I run away before he stops me.I am running in fast paces and my life in the last two weeks starts running with me.My father a school teacher passed away of heart failure and Mum and I were left with an emptiness that shakes you up.My cousins in Bombay got me a job and I rushed there to get it.After coming today I went up to my boyfriend or should I say ex of two years to meet him when I am informed by his servant that he got engaged.I do not have a clue as to why it happened and I am still hurt.
Two weeks later in Bombay, I am surrounded by eager kids of my cousins and they are all very excited to see us.They dance around Mum and I feel relieved that shes nt lonely atleast. We are to shift in our place next week.I start my work as a intern with a private hospital. I work shifts and time passes fast.Soon we shift to our house and Mum buys a dog.Good for her i feel.Whenever i treat a patient and ask him or her,'Wheres it paining?'I feel a curse settle on me, their pain can be healed and mine cannot.Its nt fair.Mum helps a lot by talking about it and so do all my cousins.Its very nice being with family and Mum says time will help.I hope so.
One year passes by.I am better now.I flirt with other interns too!I really like the neurologist Samay.He has a stability and i like that.One day we were just having lunch when one of the interns asked him,'Samay what qualities do you want in your wife?' And he smiles, 'To walk with me and to stop with me.'It really made me think.I mean how many men think like that?It might not be that great but it tells you a lot about him.We get close soon and Mum is very excited about him.One day he comes home for lunch and we talk a lot, he likes the dog.He tells about his family, father and little brother studying in the US.When i go down to drop him, he stares at me and says, 'Ashlesha, in the time i have known you, i have thought of you as a girl whose eyes betray her feelings, theres a lot of emptiness down there in your heart and i think you should learn to soak in all the happiness and joy you can today, you never know when you ll need it.All i wanted to say was how much i love you and would you like to spend the rest of your life with me?' I couldnt believe this moment and I hardly could blink.I stuttered,'Yes!' His face broke into a wide grin and i too was laughing like a monkey.I rushed back home to tell Mum this and she was ecstatic.Just then the phone rang.It was an emergency and i had to rush to the hospital.I ran.It was a young couple and their young 6 month old kid. The kids okay but the husband is badly injured and his face is all damaged.We keep both of them in the I.C.U.The wifes suffering from heavy brain damage.After 12 hours of gruelling surgery we cum out with no positive results.Our team is depressed.Samay looks at them and says, 'Buck up.We have more to do.' Everyone disperses for coffee.Samay and I settle in our cabin.He is about to say something when the clerk comes in and says, 'Sir,the police have found these in the car.He needs to confirm it with you.'He pushes some stuff on the table and we lean forward.There are some photos, driving license,bottle of water and a purse.When I read the name, I feel as if I am short of breath.The license says-Mihir Saxena.It cant be Mihir and when I look at those photos,its confirmed.Tears start coming out.I am unaware of whats happening when Samay shakes me,'Ashlesha!What happened?Why are you crying?'I tell him the truth.He consoles me.I shake my tears away.I have to be strong.Two days pass in extensive surgery.Mihirs still comatose and so is his wife.The baby girl is blissfully unaware of whats happening and shes so pretty that I feel a strong desire to have her.Mihirs parents had passed long ago so no relatives came and just one Uncle of the girl came.She was called Aarti.After 4 days of surgery Aarti passed away.I felt bad...What about her baby girl? We were hoping Mihir would make it. But even he lost his will to live on the 6th day and we lost them both.I broke down and Samay and Mum tried hard to console me.I went to look for the baby.Her black eyes looking for someone and she smiled...So beautiful.Samay came and stood next to me..'Do you want her?' I looked at him.What did he mean?'I said do you want this girl to be our daughter?'He smiled.And my heart was full of love for him.It was the most warm and joyful thing to say.I picked up the girl and she gave a big goofy smile.
Four years later we are married and now our daughter is happy with us.Shes the light of our life and I am so happy to have Samay.Our daughters named Aarti...Rote hue..aate hai sab...Hasta hua jo jayega.....Shikha